im stormy. im 15. but i feel like dusk. i dont do much, dont have a best friend... use to but then we thought it was loooove (because im bisexual and thought it was a good idea i guess.......) and yeah basically that went to hell and we wanted to kill each other so i guess that means i have a enemy?... i spend half my life asleep and the rest at a school i hate. uhmmm i started self harming on august 21,2010. that was when i was majorly depressed.... i still do it... but i also drink alcohol... not the best idea when most of your biological family are poor drunks. my mother died because she drank herself to dealth on february 2, 2013 at 4:00 a.m and three other people in my biological and adoptive family have died this year already including my last grandmother now i only have on god grandmother who i am not related to but love all my heart..... i know my dates. even though i cant remember the memories. i got over it... i didnt know her well (which was the same exact thing id cry about after she died) since i was put in a foster home at 6 years old and adopted by the same family. life is okay. im not depressed for anything (i only am when hormones are involved ;>>) im just crazy like my mother. i say that to everyone... some times i self injure just to feel something... and sometimes i feel happy doing it.... its kinda disturbing but i take mood stabilizing pills... i try and not get out of control because ive been put in a short term mental hospital and my adoptive parents threatened to put me in a long term mental hospital where ill stay for months. and the weird thing is it does the opposite of what it supposed to do. i just get depressed and feel like a caged animal... i don't know. im sort of self centered. i spend so much time within my own brain i can't relate to anyone if im not relating them to myself. if that makes sense. im shy. but im friendly. but jealous and revengeful, but loyal and forgiving when given a apology.... but crazy about tiny things. im just kinda everywhere when im no where at all. if that makes sense. its a love, hate kinda thing like hugging a porcupine. but i like friends. and i talk about nothing at all. if that makes sense. but the friends i do have my heart has chosen. i am extremely loyal and sort of clingy. sorry. but i do like to think i can be the kinda person youre friends with for life. i love giving advice and support. which can be overwhelming. im just an overwhelming person. <3 gotta love me and deal with it or if not well you might a psycho on your hands. i don't have a eating disorder but people at my school think im a walking twig. im just naturally skinny. i even compulsions to stuff my face with food whenever someone calls me skinny, but since my emotions flip flops sometimes i think about trying stop eating just to be everything they dont want but i can't not eating and sleeping is basically my life other than music and typing blogs on here. i know that is sick im surely disturbed... but then again sometimes i enjoy dabbling in the dark. even though i am a christian.... i believe i might be going to hell... but i cant change... ive tried. this is who i am... this is all i will be. its embedded in my personality. and its not much. sorry i talk a lot. about myself mostly... well this is a "about me" thing right? well here you go hope you enjoyed. u can read my interest you might be surprised i have any. gonna go sleep now.
I like all types of music. Mostly alternative and rock music. my favorite band is Pierce The Veil <3 but i love tons of other music. i love ANDY BIERSACK from Black Veil Brides he's a sexy piece of life form who doesn't even know i exist. lol. I like hello kitty, Bambi, Gir, Domo, Winnie the Pooh, L from Death Note, Agito and Akito from Air Gear, Ulquiorra from Bleach. Stewie from Family Guy. I LOVE KOALAS!!! and cheetahs, and pandas, and bunnies, and hamsters, and wolves, and kittens, and chihuahuas, and foxes, and saber tooth tigers even though they are extinct lol ; w; poor saber tooth tigers. r.i.p. Tons of other animals. <3 I love the moon. I love the beach even though i dont live near one im land locked :(. just I dont know, i like any beautiful environment I like scary movies even though Im way to paranoid to be watching them. I love pasta. My two favorite drinks are coca cola vanilla, and dr.pepper. I love chocolate. I don't have a favorite show but i like paranormal shows. pawn shows. detective shows, and towing shows. I like cartoons like adventure time and american dad and family guy. I like anime too. I normally dont read books but if theres one i like i usually dont stop reading until im finished with it. I like writing in journals. If there is a journal I like i just have to have it. I like necklaces that have razors, broken hearts, skulls, ice cream, hearts, peace signs, cupcakes, rainbows, and unicorns on them and a whole bunch other crap you wouldnt expect a person like me to wear or even like. I also like to wear lots of them together. I like wearing gloves, wrist-bands, hair-bands, and armwarmers. Usually to hide my cuts and scars but its also for security too. I like wearing coverse, and vans. But i also like wearing boots, booties, mary-janes, flats and high heels. love sweaters and hoodies. I like scarves and hats. And also hair bows. I love messager bags. I like dresses and skirt that i can wear with leggings or something to hide my scars but they make them so short like everyone is just a slut now a days. - . - I like tank tops, night gowns (or just huge shirts) as pajamas, and lots of creative tops. I don't like wearing shorts. they show my scars and wearing them with leggings looks retarded. this list can go on forever...