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Gemini (May 21-Jun 20) Profile visitors
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About Me
Hi, I'm 20 years old and began cutting 10 years ago. Everyday is a struggle to stay away from something that will do me bodily harm. I have kept this hidden from everyone. I allow people to see what they want to see...which is usually a happy, healthy me. No one needs to see my problems, but me.
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I love to read! Reading takes me places life can't.
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I feel so cut out, literally. I don't find myself worthy. |
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I feel like such a hypocrite! I stand before my church, praising God, all the whole knowing what I do to myself. In order to cope. |
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I never knew a place like this existed. I always knew I wasn't alone...I just never knew someone could relate so personally. |
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I do the same thing. I am Lutheran and since I have become more sick with my mental and physical illnesses, I have found myself turning to God and church more than ever.. It's like I go to church to ask for forgiveness for what I have done to myself and family the past week and then ask for forgiveness for what I may do the next week. I feel like a hypocrite too but I think that God knows we are suffering and it means something to him that we are still asking for help even if we can't do it. He doesn't judge us and he knows how much pain we're in. I am thinking of going to talk to my pastor about this stuff because I just don't understand it... I hope you're OK.
Jun 11
I tried to run away from God, that's when the cutting got worse. Now I only hide from people. God already know. Thank you for your concern, I'm not use to that. Every believes the smile I show them, the pain is always there, just over looked, thankfully.
Jun 18