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About Me
Well I've wrote this "About Me" before and to be truthful my first one was the shit.
I was born a cutter, Its just about the only thing that has ever been there for me. I just recently became a burner, and I love it. It hurts so good but its worth it I forget what im going through and it make me feel better.
Everyone keeps telling me you have to get through it toughen up because you can't let what happened to you affect your life. Im16 you fucks I've been going through this all by myself since forever I was good until now i think the only way i can not let it affect me is if i act like everythings fucking peachy and beautiful . And i do and it does work for a long time than it comes right back and i feel even worse. For those who havent been threw what I've been threw you might say I would've told right away. I use to say that but when it happens you dont want to think about it or even tell anyone because its so fucking sickning to the point where I want to punch the shit out of my own head to get those images out and whats really hardcore is that this world really dosent have a mind erasing machine -_- . I look in the mirror and i see something so nasty and its all because of what he did to me.
If I had it my way I'd torture his ass and make him live forever in pain.
FACT ABOUT ME
- HAS VERY LOW TOLERANCE FOR BULLSHIT
- I HATE WHEN PEOPLE LIE
- IM DISRESPECTFUL THEY SAY ; BUT NOT FOR NO REASON
- I HATE MY MOM&GRANDMOTHER
- IM FRUSTRATED AND I WANT A CIG
- I HATE THE PEOPLE THAT SURROUND ME (EXCEPT MY BRO) THATS WHY I NEED TO GO TO A NEW STATE OR COUNTRY. OR IS IT THAT I HATE MYSELF? IDK
- I DONT KNOW ALOT ABOUT MYSELF
- I SAY I DONT KNOW ALOT
- IM ALWAYS TRYING
- DUN DUN DUN !!!! I REALLY WANT TO GO TO russia BADLY !!! =(
I am 16 and I aspire to be normal. WTF is normal any way ? I smoke all that I can and consume as much alcohol as possible and you wouldnt even know. I live so I can try to be happy its kind of odd I've never been there before I get jealous when I watch them smile I think its beautiful when they laugh. I want it. ;; I'd die for my brother Xavier, and I do really want to live. Im so fucking stubborn that it makes me even mad . I want what I want when I want it, if I dont get my way I loose control . Do I even have self control? I doubt it. I wish I was a fucking spy so I can do all the cool Angelina Jolie moves . I want to be a writer, makeup artist and a model. Not all at the same time but within my whole life im determined to make it happen.
I know this about me is like kind of confusing and im supposed to be a writer and all but i was in a rush.
My Interests
- READING ANYTHING ABOUT VAMPIRES AND WEREWOLVES. I HAVE UP TO 120 BOOKS IM TRYING TO MAKE MY OWN BIG ASS
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MRI soon. I'm in a good mood but eventually will lead me too feeling horrible. Sia - Breathe Me<3 |
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Sleeping At Last's turning page <3 . I have a fucked up knee, ifeel useless . I miss my book Willow by Julia Hoban its my absolute fave. |
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I havent been here in a long time, when i obviously need to . Angus & Jullia Stone - Love Will Take You <3 |
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Long time no see. David Gray's this years love...Im addicted ! Im here, determined and ready, But still not moving . |
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Hm, Still can't hear anythin but the music frm my speakers n the thoughts n my head. N the thoughst r sayin IDK IDK wtf to do with my life. |
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Help!
I would so love to help you, because I want to no or try to no what your going threw . It'll help both of us, because I never met or talked to anyone... |
Monday, December 21, 2009 - 11:32
in So much for self control |
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Nope , I go threw it to , but
Nope , I go threw it to , but I just pop peels to get rid of me wanting to do it ! And I do think the same way like " Am I crazy " lol im like fuck... |
Monday, December 21, 2009 - 11:24
in am i the only one? |
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Live !
Im not understanding this world we live in . It's like I kind of been threw what you've been threw. But I dont want to say that because. We heave two... |
Sunday, December 20, 2009 - 20:53
in where it all began. |
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i love ur poem. poems r deep. and as for urs i think its cool n it looks like u feel like shit. its deep and it takes readers to ur deepest place.... |
Monday, October 5, 2009 - 23:48
in All I Ever See |
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i totally agree with you
i totally agree with you . its so funny because. believe it or not we act just the same. happy when you really feel like dropping dead. like fuck it... |
Monday, October 5, 2009 - 23:42
in me... |
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beated_down. Honey... i could be
2 years () (Permalink)Honey... i could be you.
But... there are other ways. I live them.
And you are not a lone. Look at this sight! All the people who know what you are going through.
healingXheart
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I don't agree
2 years () (Permalink)You do not need to keep all of this pain inside. If you talk to your family about how you feel or just find some sort of friend it would help you so much. I know it's hard when you are alone so try to find someone to talk to. People can give you a new perspective on your problems and give you more reason to love your self.
The wind calls to me and I long to do is follow.
You're not useless. I've never read Willow, been a while since I've read a book about SI.
Dec 02