Hi, I am going to remain anonymous. I am a Grade 11 and have been harming myself since Grade 9.
There were periods of time I had the strength to stop. There was a time when it wasn't this bad. There was a time I was a happy girl and life was great.
Right now I can honestly say there is not one person in my life who understands what it is I'm going through. I was recently in the hospital for psychiactric help fr minors. They tell you they can help you, but they didn't help me.
I have thought about suicide and attempted it as well. I was scared, but relieved. To think that you're never going to have a happy ending is awful. And everyday I still think there is no way all this pain I feel can be erased. That this can't possibly get better.
I'm trying my hardest to be good and everyday is a struggle. I cant say I am clean of hurting myself, because that would be a lie. But I hope one day I can be and I can look back on these hard times of my life and have people know it gets better. Because right now that's all I want to believe.