How do you change someone who doesn’t really want to change? I don’t know if I’m ready. I don’t even know if it’s worth it. It’s always been there for me. It keeps me company when I’m alone, and helps me when I need a way out. When do I realize that all the hurt I’ve been given doesn’t need to be gifted with more hurt? The aches, pain, broken beats of a grey heart…when do I get to be normal again? When do I get to be beautiful? I don’t know what I want, but I want someone to know. Someone to show up and give it to me straight. I just want to believe. For once. For once I want to believe. I want someone to change me, because my mind doesn’t want to give in. Not for me anyways.
Person [female, 18, began to SI at age 16, college kid]