do i want to stop harming myself?
on my good days im like yes i want to stop like this is not me ive gone this long without doing it, i can go sooooo much longer! so yes on my good days i want to stop because im happy life is going ok, so yea no problems. but on my bad days i have the most irrational thoughts about killingmyself about cutting my vein like its get bad… but i dont do any of that…. i cute depending on my mood. and its like after i cut i feel so happy.. relived. i ask myself why would i want to get off this high. i feel better why would i want to stop whats making me feel better. so for me its kinda in between like when im happy i look down at my scars and its like they are laughing at me and i just look away in disgust and thats like my motivation to stop. but then again…………
Person female/ age 19/ begain SI @12/student