Does anyone ever want to stop an addiction?
When something becomes a part of your every day life, makes you who you are, why would you want to stop?
This is a part of what makes you your own person.
It took me a good while to stop and even then I haven’t stopped completely. I was so addicted that I carried a razor around with me. It turned into a need rather than a want. It made me feel calm and took all my worries away for a few hours until they came back then I’d reach for my best friend. My saviour. My hero. The only thing that could put a smile on my face and stop the tears.
I don’t cut as much anymore but I still do a few times a month when things really get bad. Talking about it now gives me butterflies. I can almost feel the blood running through my veins screaming to be let out.
Self harmers are not weak. They have just been strong for too long.
Person [female, age 20, began to SI at age 18]