[female, age 16, began to SI at age 12, high school student]
By Draco Malfoy,
Yes and no. I want to stop SI-ing because i hurt all my friend and family. I hurt myself, I hurt God. I hate the scars, i hate waking up sometimes and i’m in blood stained sheets. I hate having to see disappointed faces when they see a gash in my arm. I hate the way that I have to hurt myself to make myself feel normal. I hate the way that SI is my closet friend and worst enemy. I hate the way it makes me hate myself. I hate it. but at the same time i love it because it has kept me going, it has given me something to express myself in. I wish i was strong enough to stop. I hate the way i feel after I self harm, i hate the feeling that i have to punish myself. I hate they way that this twisted addiction is what i rely on- it has kept me alive but is slowly killing me.
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 12, high school student]