I used to.
I used to, I used to want to stop but now I can’t. There’s not a day I don’t go without thinking about death, and that’s the only thing that keeping me alive.. The fact that I punish myself for being so pathetic and useless. For a strange reason it makes the thoughts disappear for a while. It helps currently, so no I don’t.. not currently at least because there’s not a strong enough reason to.
Person female, 14, i began to si at 12, student