I am a male self injurer, 30 years old…
I always feel pain when self injuring, although it depends on the situation how much pain I feel. I feel the least pain in situations of high social anxiety, or high self denial or dissociation. In those moments, the experience of cutting is akin to someone dragging a piece of driftwood across one’s arm, or whatever part of the body you are harming at the time. Remarkably numbed, but still aware of some kind of discomfort- a dull burning across the skin. Since I have started howeever- about 2 years ago- I’ve needed more and more pain to satisfy my need for relief through masochistic self-punishment.
If you’re hurting yourself, please talk to someone. It’s the only thing that truly helps.
Person male, began to SI 2 years ago