[female, age 20, began to SI at age 13 or so (cutting very recent), College student]
By Draco Malfoy,
I do feel pain, and I generally don’t feel satisfied until I’ve either felt sufficient pain or have produced enough blood. I’ve not been cutting for very long, and it took many tries before I was able to break the skin. Since then, I notice that each time, it seems to take more to satisfy me, and it also gets a little easier to push harder, to cut deeper. I have a tendency toward the excessive in whatever I do, so I frequently don’t do just one deep cut. The very first time I ever cut, I made about eight slashmarks on the side of my thigh, which remain the most prominent scars I have. The more pain I feel, as horrifying as this is, the more proud of myself I feel.
Person [female, age 20, began to SI at age 13 or so (cutting very recent), College student]