I SI because I want to and I feel the need to do so.
The very first time, it hurt, it really really hurt because I didn’t know what to do and how I could do it. But then, I became a pro.
If I feel the need of a big satisfaction, I know where I’ll cut and with which ‘instrument of work’. If I’m bored or I’m just stressed, I know how the knife will have to cut my skin, so as to relieve everything through my skin.
Everyone do look at me like I’m strange, different, they look my scars all over my body and never say anything. When they talk to me, I understand that they think I do it because I like feeling pain, but I never feel it.
SI helps me, it makes me feel good, it’s a relief, a moment in which I take -for once- care of myself.
Person [Female, age 18, began SI at 13, student]