[female, age 18, began to SI at age 12, university student]
i will have a very hot shower, just a tiny bit hotter than i think i would be able to tolerate. then i sit in the tub of the shower with all the scalding little droplets hitting and when it feels right, i use whatever i brought in with me to cut. i’ll usually sit there for a long while afterwards, watching the blood wash away and not moving. just kind of stretching out the moment.
Person [female, age 18, began to SI at age 12, university student]