[female, age 19, began to SI at age 17]
Not really. but i have to use alcohol before i can cut (most of the time- if i’m desperate i’ll do it anyway but not with a dirty needle -that’s what i use now instead of a knife. I used to use a knife but i accidentally stabbed myself with it and now i’m scared. It’s not really a needle- its one of those pins that diabetics use to prick their finger for a blood test). Sometimes, if i really want it to hurt i’ll use it after i cut, so it’ll burn more. But that’s about it. I get out the alcohol, paper towel or toilet paper, and whatever else i feel i’ll need to clean it and treat it when i’m done, and then i sit down and do it. I have to be sitting down unless i’m cutting my stomach. and i can’t be somewhere that i might get caught by someone i know or someone whose opinion i care about.
Person [female, age 19, began to SI at age 17]