I really never cut the via ritual until today. Anger and hurt makes me want to cut because I feel helpless I feel that there is nothing else that I can do to get rid of the pain. I've been cut free for a long time . . .until today. I got into a big argument with my husband and found those the way out except to cut to cut. Usually I just cut lines . Today I felt the need to cut an x on my chest, I don't know why. I tried other things last night and I got through it but I woke up and my husband was still mad. I felt out of control.