The first time I was hospitalzed I think I was around 15. I always have hid my cutting because I knew no one would understand. My boyfriend at the time told my mom what I was doing when he saw blood seeping thru my long sleeve and lifted up my sleeve to see. My mom called an ambulance and I was an inpatient for a week until I convinced my mom to sign me out by promising i would never do it again. I remember seeing the sadness in her face like she had failed me somehow. I came home to find my room ransacked. She found everything. I was then hospitalized the next year 2 days before xmas when I took a bunch of pills and cut myself. My mom found me lying in the kitchen passed out. I was released but had to go back into therapy. After that I was in and out of therapy. Being in the hospital though, it was worse than being home. All the kids talked about was different and new was to self harm. I have struggled with this for many years and i still havent found someone that understands my reasons.
Person Female, Age 21, began to SI at age 15, college student