I've never been hospitalized.
I’ve never had to be hospitalized before, but it’s only because I don’t tell anyone when I cut. The few people who do know that I have cut before don’t know that I do it now. My social worker knows that I used to cut, and she’s said that if I cut again she’ll hospitalize me. I’ve cut three times since she told me that.
I probably should be hospitalized. I’ve come close to killing myself, and I can’t control the urges sometimes. But I don’t want to be hospitalized before I finish High School because then people would say I was attention seeking. The sad part is that it’s happened to other girls for cutting and eating disorders.
Maybe after I graduate I’ll hospitalize myself and finally get some help.
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 10, singer]