Have you ever hurt yourself in front of anyone?
I never did hurt myself in front of anyone and never would. When I wa younger. I would have been punished and made me really think that what I was doing was really, really wrong. I would have been judged and called stupid, like I wasn’t anyway. If the foster people found out I would have been ridiculed more than I already was. It didn’t matter if I was caught, maybe I wanted, maybe I did but they were so into finding ways of how to not believe me and calling me a liar, ugly, I’ll never amount to anything and a lot of other stuff. I was caught doing other stuff so it didn’t really matter to me because I was always punished for it, so who the hell cares.
In my teens I was rebelious and did what teens did X 100. When I was married I thought I found my mate and was, so called, “happy”, I was very happy when my children were born. As time went on the abuse started to happen in the marriage. I guess I missed the abuse and that’s when I was cutting and cleaning myself up and the questions started. I was able to cover them up and the yelling began. The more the abuse the more the cutting.
I never would or never have cut in front of anyone. But yet, my daughter is a SI but she never witnessed it.