Feelings before, during, and after SI
Before i SI its usually because i think about a break up (it just wanders into My mind sometimes) and i’ll get mad at myself because i did something that hurt her… I get all swelled up inside Like I’m going to explode and i pick up the razor and decide whether its going to be my thighs or my wrist…
During. ill go in at first barely then i keep cutting right on that first cut to make it super
deep and i feel the layers of skin ripping as I drag the razor across my skin. Not a care in the world.
Ill watch the blood just fill then overflow then just trickle down where i made the cut.
After I feel nothing like I’m dead it honestly feels good I’ll just sit there for a little while then I’ll wipe all the blood. Its hard to explain the feeling.
Person male, age 14, began to SI at age 12/13, high school student