i am a cutter, i dont deserve anything. that's what running on my head whenever i think of myself.
i need attention and care from the people that i love but..
how do i tell them? i am afraid if they were gonna hate me, judge me, making jokes about me and just push me away.
what if people get scared of me? what if they laughs? will everything be the same and gets normal again?
theres a lot of thoughts running on my head. thats the reason why i never tell anyone. like no one. i just dont have trustworthy toward people anymore...