One so far
I wasn't planning on telling anyone I know, only people on the self help chats that are there to listen. I don't want to feel like a bother. But I was talking to this guy I've only talked online to and who's sweet. He thought I was ignoring him when i was really dealing with my demons. I told him, and he told me not to do it, but i can't just stop. I think it's like an addiction after the first time you do it. He told me he wants to help in anyway and that I shouldn't be lonely because I have him. But now I feel like he's being so nice to me because of what I told him.
I want to tell my mom, but I don't want to worry her. i don't want her to check on me 24/7 just because she thinks I'll kill myself. i can't put that burden on her. I'm 19, almost 20, for god's sake. I'm an adult and should deal with this as such, but sometimes I feel I can't do it alone.