female, age 16, began to SI at age 12
One of my friends was a cutter. When she told me about her cutting i did everything i could to get her to stop. But when i cut for the first time and told her, she accused me of copying her. That’s not why i did it at all. It was the only way i could think of to relieve my pain. Another friends begged me to stop. I didn’t listen. My mom found out from a text message sent by my friend(the one who was a cutter also) and cried the whole night she found out and hugged me and we talked. I didn’t tell her the truth though. I just mainly told her what she wanted to hear. I’ve been cut free for about a year, and i still haven’t told many of my friends. Just those first two i mentioned, and two of my other best friends. They were shocked that i was a cutter. They just couldn’t believe it, cause apparently i don’t seem like the type. But they were really supportive at first, and now we don’t really talk about it cause i think they realize it’s a part of my life that i’m not exactly proud of. I wish i could tell my other friends, but i feel that they wouldn’t understand, and would be hurt that i didn’t tell them to begin with.
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 12, high school student]