[Female,18,began to SI at age 13, College student]
She didn’t react how I thought she would. I thought my bestfriend would push me away, that she would be disgusted but she wasn’t. She understood and told me that she almost cut herself too. I found out she was depressed and I hadn’t even noticed. We talked, it was easier because it was when she was staying over and the lights were out so I couldn’t see her expressions. She asked questions and helped me understand why I do what I do. It felt amazing getting to actually talk about my feelings not pent them up. She didn’t even try to make me promise to stop, although she did ask me call her when I felt the need. One of my friends got caught a while back and the girls were ruthless, I had to listen to one of my closest friends complain about her, she said that there must be something wrong in her brain to do that to herself. I defended her but from that day I promised myself never to tell anyone about me. My bestfriend started to notice my scars and I knew it would be long before she told someone so I went to her first. Even though no one else knows it still feels like a weight lifted off my shoulders.
Person [Female,18,began to SI at age 13, College student]