[age 20, began to SI at age 11, student]
Before: desperate, confused, alone, cold, hurt, dirty, in pain, like my chest is being ripped open from the inside, uncontrollable.
During: excited, exhilarated, high in the moment, tense, keyed up, on edge, prepared, controlled.
After: calm, warm, clean, relaxed, tingly, like I can breathe, normalized, stabilized.
Person [age 20, began to SI at age 11, student]