before, during, after
before i usually feel depressed and im usually crying or i feel angry at myself. im normally on edge. sometimes its because i feel flustered or im mad at someone else and need to feel physical pain rather then the emotional.
during im normally calming down or already calm. it’s as if im numb while cutting. im focusing on what im doing rather than anything else. i usually run my fingers over the cuts and feel a comforting feeling.
after i’m usually very calm. i clean everything up as if it never happened. and clean up the cuts. i usually use gauze and medical tape since i cut on my hips. so the blood doesn’t get on my pants.
Person female, age 14, began to SI at age 11, high school student