Before, During and After SI
Before-I feel like I need it, all my stress and emotions are swirling about in my mind and the only way I can release this tension is to cut, to get rid of them.
During-Once the blade touches my skin I feel like i’m on top of a mountain, I feel relaxed and numb which is soothing for the time being.
After-I sometimes feel angry at myself because i’m damaging my body and I know that the scars will heal but they’ll still leave a mark. I feel peaceful and relieved but at the same time in pain from the wound.
Person [Age 17, Female-started SI at age16, High school student]