[female, age 16, began to SI at age 15]
By Draco Malfoy,
BEFORE: I’m very angsty, upset, angry with myself and others. I feel like nothing is going to get better unless i cut, and cutting is all i can think about until i do it.\nDURING: I feel dissociated and calm. All my problems leave and i forget everything bad, i just focus on me and my pain and getting rid of it…cutting.\nAFTER: I feel calm, but then i feel guilt and anger as well. Guilt because i know SI is wrong and bad for me, but it’s necessary for me to feel again. Anger because sometimes i can’t cut enough and i can’t get enough blood, then i blame myself and think that i’m so useless i can’t even hurt myself properly!
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 15]