[female, age 16, began to SI at age 12, high school student]
Before, I feel overwhelmed. I’ve been cutting for 4 years and now I feel out of control when I want to cut. I used to control it, now it controls me. I kind of obsess my thoughts of it unintentionally. I feel a need to do it because I don’t know any other way to get releif from what ever is making me feel this way. I get “antsy” then when I finally get a chance I get excited in a way and sometimes anxiety comes with it. During, I feel happy for the moment. I like what I see and feel. My vision seems to only see what I’m doing and my hearing seems to go completely away for the time. After, I feel releif and glad with what I’ve done. Depending on the place on my body I feel scared that people will see and I kind of panic. Either way I feel releif and like tension has been released.
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 12, high school student]