[female, age 19, began to SI at age 15]
By Draco Malfoy,
Before, there’s so much built up frustration. There’s the internal battle of “God, please don’t let me cut myself” and “You know you’ll feel better when you do.” Once I’ve given in, I’m just focused on what I’m doing. Afterwards is when I become dissociated. I clean the wounds up and bandage them carefully, but all the while feel ‘outside’ of myself.
Person [female, age 19, began to SI at age 15]