[female, age 26, began to SI at age 14]
By Draco Malfoy,
Before I feel out-of-control, hopeless, overwhelmed and as if I am drowning in myself which at the time equals pain. Right before i do it though i also feel a sense of relief because I am going to do it… I am anticipating the release. During the time I burn myself I feel dissociated. I feel out of body. I also feel concentrated and completely hone in on the act often getting lost in it. After I feel sad and lost. I feel confusion. I feel disappointed with myself because afterwards everything about me is “normal” again. I feel shame at over-reacting.
Person [female, age 26, began to SI at age 14]