[female, age 43, began to SI at age 10]
By Draco Malfoy,
Before I feel building super intense hatred and rage toward myself and I huge need to punish myself. During, I just keep repeating over and over, “I hate you” and other hateful verbiage directed towards myself alone. Afterward, my intense feelings of hate have definitely slacked somewhat.But since I usually only stop beating myself out of exhaustion, sadly a lot of my self hate is still right there on the surface ready to build up again.
Person [female, age 43, began to SI at age 10]