How Does it Feel?
Before: Before I self-injure, i’m stressed or angry or depressed, and I’m anxious to get a few cuts in and relax. I usually rush to the most private place possible, slide my blade out of the back of my phone, and SI.
During: When I cut, at first it stings, but then it’s replaced by another feeling. Have you ever seen someone throw a piece of paper? It’s like that. I float and float, but eventually I land. Depending on how deep the cut is, I experience pure euphoria. All of my problems fade away into nothing and I’m happier than ever. That’s how I feel when I cut.
After: After my high leaves though, I feel pretty normal (well, normal for me), albeit not so stressed.
Person [female, 15, began to SI at age 12]