Just About My Self Harm
How I felt before I self harmed... I felt depressed, worthless, like nothing. My sisters(twins) died when I was 9 years old. Their death took a toll on me and I was just so overwhelmed and didn't know what to do with my emotions. So I found out about self harm from my brother when he started cutting himself. I started and it hurt of course but I just kept doing it. Then I later on got addicted to it like it was a drug. When I self harmed I felt like I finally had control of my life. I then was numb when I would cut, it was like I wasn't even putting a blade to my skin. I then figured out I needed help when I kept doing it because I was bored. I then helped my self and tried my best to stop the urges. Now I'm finally happy without taking those pills and can finally not let my past be apart of me. My only regret in life it making those first cuts. I wish I never did. But I did and there is no changing that. But it's okay because of I didn' t cut then I wouldn't appreciate my body and my past like I do now. I'm a self harm survivor and I'm not ashamed of that.
Person Female, 19