Before I self-injure, I feel confusion, and I feel tired. It’s like you’re stuck in a kind of stasis. Depression is mainly the only emotion I can feel in this stage. During, it’s like I’m peeling back this curtain, or, for lack of a better way to say it, slicing it open. I don’t enjoy the pain, I enjoy the alertness and wake-up call the pain provides. After, I feel buzzed. I just sit down, close my eyes, and think. It’s almost like it leaves a ringing in my ears, but, it doesn’t. I can’t really pay attention in this stage unless I choose to consciously. I usually take a small cat-nap a half an hour later, and wake up feeling almost normal.
Person [male, age 17, began to SI at age 13, high school student]