Normally it would be my mum and i are having a fight, i would feel really sad inside and i would go to my room quitely and when my mum continues shouting I would quickly grab/search for the blade and starts cutting while crying. I would feel really really sad like I have been heartbroken.
I would cut uncontrollably till the I passed my old scars, I would make sure that it bleeds and if it does not I would cut the same place again. When I’m doing this I would feel i’m in control and the satisfaction of watching myself bleed and I would blame my mum for causing me to do this.
I would stop crying and feel satisfied and regret on cutting myself. I would try to find ways to cover up my scars.
Person Female, 19, begin to SI 16, college student