Most of Them Hate me
I didn’t tell people, except for one person. Sadly, this girl called Leigh-anne (who wants me dead, quite literally!) overheard and called her mother, who then called into the school. I was frowned upon by everyone, and since everyone found out, people started spreading rumours about me, one rumour in particular was that I was dangerous and that I shouldn’t be allowed back in school. Obviously, I heard, and it hurt me that everyone thought I was crazy… I even started to believe it myself. It has been a lot worse since people found out - everyone thinks that I do it for the attention, especially my immediate family! I have been suspended from school twice over self injury, and have been isolated from normal school for 3 months because of it. I wish that nobody knew except for my friend Lucy, because Lucy has been soooo supportive.
One positive, however, is that I don’t have to hide the scars, only at school which I don’t usually (the blazer iriritates the new cuts) but now I have to because I carved my ex’s name into my arm…
Overall, people knowing has been the worst thing, which just lead to even more cutting on my part, because people called me a freak, an emo (which, people called me anyway, but I think I’m more goth…), a cutter, and many people told me to go die and to cut myself. I got bulied even worse when people found out, but the help I then got from my ex and therapist helped me a whole bunch, so I think if you can tell family, and not the whole school, then it gets better - not worse.
Person female, age 15, began to SI at age 12, high school student