Easier; I am so thankful I did.
I have only told two people and they are my two absolute closest friends– both very different people. One of my friends doesn’t cut, but the other use too (she’s about 5 years older than I am). My friend that did cut, it took all I had to tell her. I felt so guilty because she had told me of her past, why she cut, how long, what made her hit rock bottom, etc. But I could never tell her in fear that she would be mad with me, and very disappointed. I even had a two hour long panic attack after I decided I was going to go through with telling her. I was wrong about her reaction, though. Telling her was one of the best things I’ve ever done. She was in no way angry, nor was she disappointed. She was very calm. She told me that telling her was a very brave thing to do, asked if I was keeping them clean, told me that cutting isn’t something people grow out of, and that if I felt like I needed to cut then I was to call her right away. I have not called her. I will have to build up the courage to do so. But knowing that I have someone so close to me that knows exactly what I’m going through is wonderful. It has made dealing with cutting much easier. I’m not healed, and I don’t think I will be any time soon. I now, though, have someone who can help me through it when I’m ready to start the process, and will stay here for me even while I don’t.
Person Female, age 16, began to SI at age 14, high school student