[female, age 14, began to SI at age 12, student]
By Draco Malfoy,
it hurts. it hurts so bad. especially if your scared. especially if you know that its stupid. i know that cutting is stupid for me to do. i often feel selfish because i knwo there are people who almost deserve to cut because their lives are 10 times worse than mine. but, at the same time, certain people can only handle so much. and really, it depends on your situation. im at the peak of the stress and emotional pain that i can take right now. and so i cut to get rid of it all. i wish i didnt have to feel like i needed to cut…but its like breathing. you do it cuz you have to…you do it to live. weird comparison, i know, but it is. i love my wrists. i love my body. i love my life. but it doesnt always love me. and im sorry for that. im sorry that i go through pain like i do. and im sorry others do too. i would really like for the world to be happy and not have to hear baout suicides and depression and SI-ing so much. its a dark, underground world…and you don’t wanna get caught up in it.
Person [female, age 14, began to SI at age 12, student]