[female, age 15, began to SI at age 13, high school]
By Draco Malfoy,
Im not sure what im supposed to put here… uhm I guess i just say how i feel. Well personally i feel very depressed, before i’d have up’s and downs. I could be happy than all of a sudden i’d crash and id become so depressed. I feel like no one notices me, im just ‘there’.I feel like i fail. Im not very good in school…much less anything? i feel like i fail being a friend and daughter. I feel i fail as a person. I really dis-like myself greatly. I don’t find myself…in ANY way pretty,…i find myself ugly, basically a disgusting pig. People always tell me things would be better if i was gone, and i start to believe it. And i do believe it.. And i just want out of this. Out of feeling this. I hate waking up and feeling this void, this heavy feeling of crap. My friends say im Bi-polar… hm. I just wish i could actually find a reason not to…kill myself…Ive read/heard a lot but it doesnt change the way i feel, it doesn’t make me …not…want to kill myself?
Person [female, age 15, began to SI at age 13, high school]