[female, age 18, began to SI at age 16, Art Student]
By Draco Malfoy,
When I was six I dropped a bowling ball on my big toe and broke it. Thinking about it now, I remember that it hurt, but I don’t remember what it felt like. When I recall that incident with the bowling ball my toe doesn’t start to hurt again. But that’s the thing about physical pain, you can’t remeber it, and it doesn’t come back when you think of it. Emotional pain is different though, when you think of somehting that hurt you emotioally you can start to feel the same pain all over again. When the memory comes back, the pain comes back with it. \n\n You can try and forget about the things that hurt you but sometimes the memories come back anyway. Or sometimes the memory leaves you while the pain stays behind, and you are left with all this pain that you either can’t identify or can’t control. When I SI I’m just replacing that emotional pain with physical pain, pain that I can control, pain that I can identify, and pain that won’t come back.
Person [female, age 18, began to SI at age 16, Art Student]