The nonexistent pleasure of relapsing
I thought I was going well. But then, after over a half year of half-functional relationship, I have some serious problems with my boyfriend and I’m doing it again. Not exactly the way I used to, but still. I just don’t know what else to do, and in a way, everybody hurts theirselves in these situations, don’t they? I just can’t stand the thought it’s all because of me and I feel like I’m seventeen again.
Relapsing is not just a step backwards, it’ s being thrown back for almost a lifetime.
Person [gender: female,age 18, began to SI at the age of 12, high-school- student]