Road to Recovery?
I think I might be able to pull myself together, at least from this. I haven’t cut myself in almost 2 months. I had to stop or else I would lose my big brother, the one person who has shown me the most support. After my last relapse he told me I didn’t want to get better, that he has tried his best to help me. This is the best I can do for now. Now that I don’t have my razors around anymore I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t feel like I deserve any credit for my “progress”.
I spend a lot of time thinking about death. To me life is only an agonizing journey to grave. Pretty grim view, huh? I’ve got people telling me to stop thinking like that and my brother is scared that I might do something bad. They can talk all they want but they don’t know how I feel inside. But despite this, I keep hanging on. Maybe things will turn around soon.
Person (female, age 24, began to SI at age 21, university student)