Thought on when i started cutting.
hello. i would just like to say this. get it out to the world i guess. for what reason? not sure.
Anyhow… I have been cutting for six years. i may seem stupid to whoever is reading this and i dont really care because i know the truth about myself. I was 14 when i started to cut. When i was 14 i had a boyfriend move in with me. i saw a movie on the channel lifetime about a girl who cut herself. and not right after but after this i tried it. and i experienced relief from my emotions. cutting became my way of dealing with sadness and anger. six years later and i still do it. i dont like to. i dont do it often. it is not something i can choose not to do. i am not blaming anybody. these actions are my own. however i wonder how i would have developed my coping skills had i not seen that movie at that age.
Now, i wish i could get help. I have no insurance to go to a therapist. i have told several people including a parent. and no one did anything. they do not understand it. i dont want to cut. i want to stop. but i cant.
Person [female, age 20, began to SI at age 14, none]