I've always been uncomfortable in a medical setting. Mostly because everything feels so impersonal. A total stranger trying to understand you based on the allotted time is absurd.
I've been to two doctors for mental health and SI. Both were horrible experiences. I remember one doctor's response to my SI was, "well, this is no unusual case. Many people self injure. And the greatest number of these people are female teens. Just like you." At that moment, I had never felt so categorized or dehumanized. Here I am, opening up to you Doctor, and all you have for me are statistics? Thanks but no thanks.
I left feeling worse than I did before the doctor appointment. I'm pretty positive I injured immediately after the appointment.
And Never returned.