[female, age 31, began to SI at age 13]
By Draco Malfoy,
I’ve had to seek out medical attention a lot lately for my wounds. In general, the place I go has competent and professional staff (it is a center on a school campus) so there isn’t an overtly negative reaction to treating me. But, it’s easy for me to see which ones have the hardest time dealing with it/me. There is one doctor though who is outright condescending to me if I have to see her. The last time I went in she looked at me and said something to the effect of, “so you don’t have any control over doing this to yourself?” Making it clear that she thought I did and was just choosing to be a nuisance. So, I left feeling even worse about myself then I did going in (which is pretty amazing–who knew I could sink so low) and I’ve decided that I won’t seek treatment anymore unless there is blood spurting or a vein showing. I would rather put up with ugly scars than deal with that humiliation (and does she ask her fat patients whether they have any control when they binge on food?).
Person [female, age 31, began to SI at age 13]