I didn't realise until I started cutting that I had been self-harming since I was 6. I would always bite myself when my emotions were too much to handle. This continued until I developed major depression and... well, you know how that goes.
I posted this because I saw how many people here were still in high school dealing with this. I don't want to discourage you. I don't want to undermine the message that your counsellors are saying - that things will get better. They will - no, seriously. For some of you, though, mental illness will be a long-term thing - but that doesn't have to mean bad.
I have suffered depression since I can remember, and full-blown depression for the last 12 years. Self-harm is my last resort, and I am careful. I have people I am responsible to. There is no out. That is not an option. But there are still good things.
I don't know whether I will ever stop cutting. There are a few things I have learned, though: don't do it while drunk (you'll regret it); it will scar as you get older (seriously, it looks like I've been attacked by ninjas, and not in a cool way); doctors and nurses hate seeing it (they have prejudices against it); and you really need to know your freaking anatomy because you might end up in trouble when you don't mean it (you do not want to explain to your mum why you ended up in hospital. Trust me.).
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