[female, age 14, began to SI at age 12]
By Draco Malfoy,
It started just out of the idea that I should because I wasn’t quite right in the head. I was (and still am) too self-conscious and depressed about everything. I am too hateful and bitter. I hate everything, including SI, sometimes. But I found that SI is quite addicting. I found that it is beautiful. It is like art. I love the taste of blood..the look of it..and the feel of it. I love the process, almost a ritual. I love the rush of adrenaline that builds up. I love the feeling that everything that I can’t let out is bleeding out of me..it’s almost poetic. I get so angry and hateful sometimes that I don’t know how to let out my deep frustration and then after it is just such a relief to me. It calms me down.
Person [female, age 14, began to SI at age 12]