[female, age 16, began to SI at age 9, high school student]
By Draco Malfoy,
Well, i did it for the first time in 11 months last night. I did/do it when i felt that there was no other option. When i was too dissociated to think clearly, to talk about my feelings (be it to my boyfriend, best friend, or diary). Sometimes it’d be when i was angry at my father, which i turned in on myself. Other times it was because i was bored. Or restless. Or just needing to feel at all. It’s infinitely easier to deal with physical pain than emotional. You can say “Right arm. Pain. There’s a cut. Put a kleenex on it. That’s right. See, the pain’s all gone. Good girl.” You can’t do that when you have no idea what’s going on inside of you to make you feel the way you do.
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 9, high school student]