[female, age 19, began to SI at age 15]
By Draco Malfoy,
I cut myself as a way to deal with the pain and frustration in my life. I have no other outlet with which to express these emotions. I feel like I should add something about my health in this, too. I’m a sickly little girl. I don’t ever get colds or minor illnesses. Oh, no. About twice a year, I get sick. I think I’m the only person in the world who’s had mono four times. The past Jan/Feb I had mono, tonsillitis, strep, and an ear infection all at the same time. I even had to be intubated in the ER at one point. I also have a yet unidentified lymph disorder that’s contributing to this. My spleen is nearly all scar tissue. On top of this, I have moderate scoliosis, so my back is in nearly constant pain. I think part of the reason I cut myself is that I’m so angry at my body for ‘failing’ me.
Person [female, age 19, began to SI at age 15]