i self injure because i love the scars..
The first time i ever cut, it was because someone i really loved had just broken up with me. I loved the feeling during cutting, and the feeling after. I loved how when i would shower, the water would kind of sting my cuts, but not enough to make me cry out i pain. I cut again because i wanted these feelings again. I stopped for about a week because two of the people i told were begging me to, but then i started again. Not because anything bad was happening, but because i wanted that feeling again. oh and i absolutely loved the scars. i know that sounds sick, but probably half of the reason i cut was because i thought the scars i got were so cool. I still have them, and sometimes i just wanna cut again to get new and worse scars. when people ask about the scars, i say theyre nothing and just change the subject. Not many people know about my cutting. No one even knows the real reason why i continued cutting after the first time. I myself just figured it out recently. I’m even too scared to say it on here, because people might see and judge me. hopefully someday i’ll have the strength to tell people.
Person [female, age 16, began to SI at age 12, high school student]